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I really was upset lately and I didn't want to blog because I just felt extra stress about sitting down to do it.

I got fired from my salon job!! 

I was so extremely upset. 

It is my dream job to work at a tanning salon. 

I LOVE MY JOB!!!!

The new manager just seemed to not like me at all...

well my favorite customer, who I would more call my beloved friend now, was SO kind to me through this pain.

he made me feel better right away, he said "this is just one bad person trying to get in your way, you shouldn't let her stop you because it's only her who wants to punish you."

already that made me feel much better.

but even with that, he also told me he defended me right to the manager's face next time he saw her, and scolded her for firing me! 

He even said I was the best staff in that salon!

AND, even with that, he also said he will teach me how to drive!

AND even with that, he also took me all the way to another salon he thought I wll get along with well, to meet the manager.

omgggg I didn't know how unmaintained and horrible my salon had been!!

I neve went to another location except headquarters before.

This salon's toilets and sinks actually drained, they have hot water, the floors aren't ruined from floods, the desk is beautiful, they have much better beds, everything is clean.

and I really liked the manager there and we got along really well!

She told me she wants me for her store and that my sales were great (which meant so much for me because I was always scolded at my store for my sales and for the things I would sell).

the trouble, though, is that this salon is very far away. a complicated bus trip with multiple transfers and long walks in between. I've never made a travel like that before and I'm nervous about if I can even do it without getting lost.

It's 1 hour and 11 minutes away according to Google Maps.

So I really don't know how I can make it work...

But I so badly want to.

but, even with everything else, my friend also said he would pick me up and take me home from my shifts there! 

ALSO, he said he likes Eurobeat and Hypertech!!!!

I've never met anyone else who likes it and I'm so surprised!

My friend took me to practice driving yesterday!

I was surprised how well I can drive considering I have never ever driven a car before.

I jerked a lot pretty severely, but I was able to learn how to drive smoothly pretty quickly.

well, I still jerked a lot when braking.

but I was also able to park almost perfectly which shocked me so much!! I thought I would be really bad at that.

Well, as I thought, I'm very bad at being aware of my surroundings, I did see pedestrians but I'm a little worried about seeing other cars.

Well, I think I will get better with that over time.

Also, going fast is so fun!

so I'm really happy, because the car I want is a turbocharge, so it'll be so fun to go in joy rides in it.

I thought I would be scared of it ww

Alsoo I made a JP order! Finally!

I bought it because I was sad after I got fired wwww

I'm still waiting for the items to arrive at the warehouse.

I just want to go there and hunt down the items myself ww

I also want to make more orders but I have to keep all the money I have while I'm unemployed and I know that. 

but it's so hard

I also got some getsu ➝

BABYMETAL new album!! 

But I also don’t have a record player so I won’t get to listen to it T-T

I searched as hard as I could to find 90年 shoes but somehow, I guess I’m incompetent because I didn’t find anything! 

So I bought Demonias for now because they were the closest I could find.   

Finally got to go to Bath and Body Works!! 

I went to buy the whole new Coco Paradise line and a new bottle of At The Beach scrub, but I also really liked the Watermelon Mojito smell so I also bought it.

J got Mahogany Coconut cologne and candle, I really like the smell on him

Lately ➝

 to KOHI ➝ Congratulations on your new bird baby! Kiwi is super cute, even if she's naughty, and I can't wait to meet her!

 to DAVID ➝ Thankyou so much for all of your kindness, I don't think I could ever repay you, please continue to treat me well ~

to FORTUNA➝ I love you guys, thankyou for reigniting my passion and love for style and encouraging me to become more extremely ME.

20230321

 

YO

well I didn't blog for a longtime... again.

ごめん。

I really don't need to make an excuse, (especially because literally no one reads this w)

but I was just unmotivated 

and I also feel that I have been giving my all in the chatrooms on discord and my circle chatroom.

so I don't really need to post here anyways.

but I said I would for the sake of looking back on my own memories, so I will.

since joining FORTUNA I have been really motivated to give it my all with my appearance.

 I have had a really lame style for a long time, because why would I care about it?? If i'm not feeling well and I have no reason for it anyways.

but now I am inspired by my fellow cir members and we are working hard together.

we are even all matching our hair!

Now we are also moving in 1 and a half months.

I'm very stressed about it and I am not making enough money to contribute to rent at all as it is, let alone when we move and it will be a half split rather than a three way split.

I kind of want to cry when I think about it so instead I'm thinking about what decor I want.

Our place is ugly especially now when it's half packed away. 

it's gonna be nice to have a fresh start even if it's not much different.

I was really inspired by Akarin's old place and Emi's old place. white, blue, beachy, and POOH~san

I hope I can manage to make the place how I like it, and finally have a stable comforting place to decompress in, rather than constantly feeling tense and on edge in my own home.

I have other things I want to talk about but I want to wait until they actually come through before I show them.

I'm so done having flat hair after this day 

Why does my camera wash out my skin so much T-T

We found this in the discount section and I absolutely had to buy it. It was so cheap, because no one would be caught dead wearing this, except me.

I want these so bad 😭

Ignore the lash ignore the lash ignore the lash ignor

I got a new dress! I will show it properly next time I wear it, it is VERY NEON and this photo doesn't do it justice.

I’ve been trading lotions with one of my favorite customers. She gave me a bit of her extremely spicy tingle concoction and honestly I LOVED IT!! 

I immediately bought the lotion she uses off the shelf and I think I’ll be using tingles always from now on.